Democracy makes me feel like a dick

One thing that I find annoying of the many is when I get talked down by the majority. I am behind democracy (or at least I think I am) but it can be incredibly upsetting when everyone I'm talking with disagrees with me. It happens so often now, with everything from politics to whether Ricky Gervais is a twat (I think he's very good, but few others seem to), that I begin to doubt myself and wonder whether I actually know anything. This can be very oppressing, as unlike the whiny little bitch bags that many refer to as teenagers I am happy to admit that I enjoy it when people appreciate the same things as me, as it means I can have at least a little social life. Thus when no one agrees I feel isolated, like a Sikh in a mosque.

This is the main reason why I tend to avoid politics. My sister can tell me off all she wants, but I don't want to vote until a) I can find the time to feel incredibly strongly about a certain issue being brought up and b) I can find a candidate or party that blows me away with their appealing if a little flawed policies. And it's hard to do this when the only thing I have ever got right in politics is when I commented that I can never be right in politics; someone will always attack my opinion and make me feel like a dick for even trying to sound like a give a shit about what I was trying to argue. It was proven when my sister had a go at me for not wanting to vote yet: if I decided to vote then someone else would say I was wrong to do that. My response, therefore, is "fuck that".

Is the glass half full, half empty, or somewhere in between?

Hello,
I have decided to start a blog, not because I want attention for all the potentially witty things I may say on current affairs, but just to clear my head every week or so. People are welcome to read this (and I guess as I'm writing this on a public medium there is a part of me that would enjoy people reading this) but I won't get massively offended if you don't, as I appreciate that you may be preoccupied with better things to do.

I'm currently at home for my easter break from university. I had been immediately struck with a dilemma on my return from university (and no, it isn't 'uni') which perfectly defines whether I am an optimist or a pessimist: I have my 3 best friends back here in Attleborough, and my girlfriend goes to my university. This becomes a pessimistic issue if you were to think of it as "when I'm at home I won't see my girlfriend, and when I'm at university I won't see my best friends", however thinking of it as "At university, I'll get to see my girlfriend and at home I get to see my best friends" is marginally more optimistic. So what am I, I asked myself. Both. You may find through these blogs that I have many opinions on certain subjects. One of these is that I hate abbreviations (see above uni comment) and another is that I don't like to see things as black and white, but as a nice spectrum of grey.

An example is above: sometimes I get very sad over the issue of not seeing my friends/girlfriend (pessimism), but sometimes I think "well at least I have at least someone for both locations". I mean, if they weren't this equally distributed, a whole section of my life would suck, and that wouldn't necessarily be compensated by the good sections. Another example is when I look in the mirror. On certain days I will admit that I think I look fairly attractive, and this cheers me up. But on other days, I look like a rucksack of porridge and spots has been ripped open by oat (and possibly pus) loving savages. I like to think most people have this, you'd have to be pretty depressed to always hate your own reflection. This is why I hate emos, for they claim that they don't like themselves, and this draws some of the attention (which is what they're looking for) away from the actual depressed people: unfair. Thus I think you cannot just have one adjective or the opposite, but a sort of mash up of the two. You can tell I'm a scientist.